Reading about what these folks are working on with Quinn, and how they are doing it (with a combination of TEACHH, PECS, ABA, and Floortime!) gives me an extraordinary appreciation for their work. I've observed Quinn in the classroom there, and the patience, knowledge, commitment, and professionalism these folks exhibit is stunning. So that's what I'm grateful for.
Now for the depressing part. Quinn is really delayed. Assessments are an imperfect measure, and they all differ, and the instruments don't capture all the strengths, and the reliability and validity may be questionable and who cares anyway about the numbers, and yada yada yada. But it's just a downer to read that your 30-month-old has the cognitive development of an 8-month-old. And even the areas of relative strengths show a 50% delay, so around 15-16-month level. Just not that fun to read, really. None of this is a shock, but well, it always is, a little bit, to see it in black and white, after all the work, all the "more" games and putting blocks away one-at-a-time.
And even though I am blown away with the patience of the folks working with Quinn, that also makes me a bit sad. Because frankly, I just don't have the patience to to exchange a PECS card for a Pepperidge Farm goldfish 30 times at every snack, like they do at his program. (Quinn eats a lot of goldfish - yum!) Even if I were not working, I probably wouldn't do it, which makes me feel a little guilty and inadequate...and grateful that Quinn has people in his life who will do that every day for a few hours.